too many problems...
So, I guess I've been MIA for a while. Bleh. I got the Fashion Internship. It's been...uh, not great. I thought it would be more of a PR internship, but I don't get to do anything remotely PR-related. I basically log and pack clothes that are going out to photo shoots in magazines and I log the clothes that are coming back in from photo shoots. It's really tedious work, I'm on my feet most of the day, and I don't really get a lunch break or anything. After my first couple of days, my feet were screaming at me. I'm only going Mon/Tues/Thurs, which is definitely enough for me. Some of the other interns are nice, and a few select staff members are really nice. The others...have a lot to be desired. I have four interviews next week. The only full-time interview is for a PR company. I don't know much about it, but it looks like it has potential. One is for a part-time hostess position at this restaurant that I love. I go there all the time and it seems like a place where the people are really laidback and cool. It's really close to the NYU campus. The other interview is for a receptionist at a medical clinic. I don't know much about the place, but I'll know more when I go to the interview. The last interview is for an internship that I had applied to almost a month ago. Originally, they were offering $2 an hour, so when she contacted me again this past week, I said I was looking for employment that was paying more. She asked how much I wanted, and I said about $10/hr, and she told me to come in. Very confused about what happened, but I've got nothing to lose, I suppose. I'm hoping to hear back from more places. I probably sent out about 6-8 resumes for full-time and part-time jobs, so we'll see.I'm going to a Damian Rice concert with Melissa on Tuesday. I don't really know many of his songs, only a select few, so I'm not as excited as I could be. But I'm sure it'll be fun. Kara's coming down with a couple of her co-workers that day, so I'm going to try to meet up with her for dinner or something.I'm also going to a show Cynthia and her production company are putting on. It's nice to have plans for a change. Usually, I just go home and have dinner with my parents, haha.Anywho, those are the updates.Later.Labels: career, friends, interviews
i can't explain myself at all...
For whatever reason, I am incredibly tired today even though I got more than enough sleep. I feel like my body is giving out on me, even though I don't tax it nearly enough for that to happen. And I've been consistantly exercising, so there's no reason I should be getting sick. It's also not like I have a job that's exhausting me. Maybe my three interviews has wiped me out. Hah.
Lately, I've been very aware of the fact that on most nights, I sit at home, watching a movie or dvds. More than once, I've caught myself checking people's AIM profiles over and over again. I miss being at school and living with roommates and having friends that I could hang out with with one phone call and a short walk/bus ride away. I feel like I'm so far away from that life already and I've only been out of school for 6 months.
I've never been, by any means, a party person. Well, that's not true. I went through a year of hard partying freshman year, but after that, I kind of dreaded it. Alcohol usually makes me sick a couple minutes after I ingest it (I call it my ADD, Asian Drinking Disorder, it's been scientifically proven that many Asian ppl are allergic to alcohol. We simply don't have the enzyme to break down alcohol, so after we drink it, it becomes almost toxic. That's why we turn red so quickly, and in my case, there's also a lot of throwing up.) That's not to say, I don't like to have a drink once in a while, but my days of reckless binge-drinking have been severely impaired as the second I chug a drink, my insides feel like they're about to explode out of my body. So that has limited my desire to go out, get drunk, and dance/hook up. I've become quite the homebody, and I'm okay about that, but in attending one of the biggest party schools in the nation, sometimes it feels like everyone's out having fun but me. A lot of bonding is done whilst drunk that I've missed out on these past couple of years.
Now that I'm home, I don't usually feel like I'm missing out. Sometimes I get that twinge of jealousy when my friends visit each other and go out to party, but usually, I'm content in sitting at home and watching movies. I live in a completely different state than most of them and going to see them would require at least a 3 hour road trip. Of the few friends I do have in NYC, most live in different boroughs. To see a friend in Brooklyn can take upwards of 1 1/2 hrs to drive/take the subway to their house. Usually, we meet in a neutral territory, like Manhattan, catch a movie and have some dinner. And that's ok. Usually.
But sometimes I wish I was a more social person, that went out with friends a lot, to clubs and bars. I've always wished I had more friends at home, or rather, I had friends that would call me up and invite me places. In high school, I only had a couple close friends, and a bunch of casual acquaintances. Throughout the years of college, I've lost contact with almost all but two or three people. I always wonder what would've happened if I had made more of an effort to socialize with more people at school, or at least kept in contact with them.
Ugh, I'm having trouble forming coherent ideas, so I'm going to go watch Clue and zone out.
Labels: friends, loneliness, school
